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Thursday, September 21, 2017

RAYA 2017 : BY ETS TO SEMANGGOL WITH LOVE

Fuhhh...dah nak Awal Muharram jap lagi,kita baru nak taip entry Hari Raya Puasa..mohon jangan kecam ehhh..hahahaha. Raya tahun 2017 ni giliran kita raya dengan anak - anak. Mestilah excited terlebih. Raya 25.06.2017, 26.05.2017 kita dah settle beli tiket balik kampung naik ets. Yess, hari 1st ets bukak jual tiket terus kita beli. Tiket ets ni laju benau habisnye. Kene la beli cecepat. Itupun plan nak balik jumaat kena awalkan balik Khamis malam sebab tiket jumaat dah xde..

Pergi KL Sentral petang Khamis tu around 5.30pm sebab tiket ets pukul 7.53pm. Nasib pergi awal sebab beratur nak buy MEkdi je dah nak sejam..fuhhhh,terisi masa menunggu Mekdi..muahahaha..


tips untuk bawak kiddos naik public transport for long journey ni, sediakan 1 beg untuk letak entertainment diorang. Tu mini whiteboard,marker pen,all mishka dino and few nia fav item semua kasi letak. Sebab nia mishka tak berapa layan sangat tab or fon ni, diorang mesti cari mainan diorang. Paling tidak pun sumbat je makanan bagi senyap..hahaha..yess, lotsssssssssssssss of foods and snack toooo..
Gigih tau kita bawak 1 je beg besar sebab xmo pegang byk2 beg, tp nak sumbat baju 3 org fuhhhhh percintaan sangat oi. Lupa plak amik pic beg nye tapi ayu bawak 1 beg luggage yg besar tu la.



Kalau tahun 2015 dulu bawak Mishka naik ets dia tido dekat 2 jam, balik kali ni Masyaallah... mama headache kejap.nasib naik train boleh je dia ke depan ke belakang tp part dia tegur semua orang, hulur kopok kat semua orang tu semua orang terhibur tau... Mishka siap duduk dengan ade sorang awek tu atas riba layan video tau..Hai la Mishka....
Journey to Taiping tak lama pun, 3 jam setengah sajo. Train sharp 7.53pm depart then by 11.10pm dah arrive. Selamat dari segala traffic jam bagai. Nasib jugak dalam coach kitorg,ramai budak - budak,so xde la anak-anak Ayu je yang tak behave..Muahahahahaha..

ok la,nak sambung entry raya 1st macam panjang plak..tunggu next part plak..adiosssss



Tuesday, April 11, 2017

NIA GO TO SCHOOL

fuhhhh..patutnya update hal ni waktu bulan 1 hari tu....ahahhaha..bad mama,sorry nia,but its better late then never kan..dah 4 bulan school.Alhamdullilah Nia okay jer pergi school...tak pernah ponteng sesaje lagi melainkan sebab tak sihat..bangun pagi kalau dia ngantuk ke,sebut je tak mau pegi sekolah ke???mesti terus celik mata nia...

this is on her 1st day of school...







so far,she now on the way belajar membaca..bad mama i am,nia mmg tak mau belajar kalau dengan kita..means,adalah dalam less than 5 minutes yang dia serius,then yg lain main2 lebih...kat sekolah guna buku e-xra,so mama pun guna itu lah untuk nia...so far,adalah ayat2 yang nia dah pandai baca... ayu kalau boleh bukan nk dia pandai baca je,tp mengeja dan menulis...

ohh,nia school kat Prasekolah Bintang, dekat bawah ofis ayu jer...senang...diorang banyak jugak buat aktiviti sbb student IPG ni pun ada yang major prasekolah so diorg buat program untuk kanak-kanak Pra sini...
Ni antara aktiviti diorang 









how time flies,tu kat side bar tu nia baby lagi...now dah grown up sgt...sikit hari lagi dapat rombongan meminang plak...alahai,mak tak kuat..dah la kita ni clingy mama...

Nia,sekolah elok-elok,pandai-pandai..sorry sayang mama tak mampu nak hantar sekolah mahal-mahal tapi sayang,ilmu tu kalau kita usaha,mahal atau murah tetap ilmu...belajar rajin - rajin... Mama tak dapat jadi apa yang mama cita - cita kan,tapi mama harap Nia akan kejar dan capai apa yang Nia cita - citakan.mama akan sokong dan bimbing nia sebaiknya..jangan cita2 nak jadi yang bukan2 udah le....ohh,currently cita - cita Nia nak jadi Doktor Haiwan..we see sampai bila cita - cita dia nak jadi doktor haiwan..huhuhuhu

yours truly clingy mama....

Friday, February 3, 2017

BUKIT TABUR :: MINOR ACHIEVEMENT 25092016

omg sangat kan...dah masuk new year 2017 pun....baru hegeh2 nak dapat aura rajin tu,banyak cerita 2016 yang dah terlepas...fuhhh,lap peluh nak catch up balik...insyaallah,akan cover mana yang patut tak dilupakan...antaranya inilah,one of minor achievement ooo...dah berapa lama xde g hiking or xtvt gini..broga pun i xpernah sampai...tetibe ko dah naik Bukit Tabur,one of bukit banyak org mati oooo...in fact,2 weeks after our hiking,Tabur is closed due to ada org jatuh....fuhhhhh..nasib kitorg selamat naik dan turun....

a day before,gigih kitorg g jogg malam tu,me n rita sbb bebajet kene la fit kan nk hiking...badan pun dah lama xkene dera buat benda2 cenggini...even sebelum naik pun mmg dah expect esok mesti sakit 1 badan...ahahahaha...

25092016 tu,as early 5.50am kitorg dah kuar rumah...rasanya la,around that time and dalam 6.30 tu kitorg dah smpai Melawati and jumpa dak ofis rita...haaa,dak ofis rita yg guide...fefeling la naik dengan bebudak abes u...muahahaha...kesian diorg,bawak akak 2 org tak fit..nasib sampai puncak kan dik...muahahaha...
before 7.00am kitorg gerak dah naik atas,that time still gelap lagi...fuhhh,dimulakan perjalanan dengan ummul khitab dan bismillah....

nampak happy kan...kat sini bila time turun hazab hoiii...
melecet tgn mak sbb tali tu...dah la ramai org time turun..

dia punya mintak nyawa,mintak nafas nak smpai ke atas tu...Allahu..bpe kali ntah kitorg stop xterkira plak..hahahaha...ampun dik,kakak dah kejung lama x buat benda gini...nasib ade sorg budak tu,gini ayat dia "kak,sikit lagi kak,lg 15 minit kita smpai" untuk setiap 15 minit yang berlalu...
muahahaha


sikit lagi sebelum panjat peak tabur,kitorg rest mintak nafas mintak nyawa kejap....

sebabkan amatur naik kan..trek yg around 1 hour++ pun jadi 2hour+- la...around 9.00am++ kitorg smpai atas...exact time tak ingat dah..cerita all the way to the up,dah xingat sangat dah..tapi during our time tu ramai gak la yang hiking..ramai budak2 u la kan..aktivitifav diorg kan ...fuhhh,bila dah smpai atas tu...Masyaallah....memang satiesfied guarentee la...hilang dah semua sakit badan,sakit tangan,sakit kaki bagai tu...bila dapat tgk pemandangan dari atas,jenguk kepala ke tepi curam,fuhhhh...kerdil nya diri ini....bayangkan kalau tetibe jatuh,walau selamat dari jatuh,boleh survive ke hidup dalam hutan??Allah je tau.....


budak 2 org tu kaki selfie tepi bukit..berani diorg gi betul2 tepi batu tu...
istifar kita tgk diorg...mak dari kejauhan sikit je la mampu....


ni je mampu paling tepi,ini pun mengengsot nak duduk tepi tu..muahaha..
tapi once dah duduk situ,pandang semua hijau,rasa xnak bangun plak

agak2 milo nak amik buat duta tak?minum milo,bwk beg milo

respect to my self!u did it ayu!

my running buddy....


our sipi2 ke gaung selfie...muahahahha


ni all of us yg naik hari tu...see,ramaikan bodyguard kitorg..muahahahaha

lama jugak kitorg lepak atas tu....apa lagi,breath taking and picture taking la....memasing bergambar... and bila dah naik sampai atas,kenalah turun plak kan...and to go down hill,fuhhhh another series of mintak nyawa....xsepenat naik tapi asyik jatuh je...cisskut cisskek betul..due to kasut la,slippery... nak down hill kan route dia agak slippery la...
bape kali ntah i redhakan diri je terduduk tertonggeng,ku capai je siapa yang sempat...muahahaha...tp paling hazabbaidah kat tali yg dlm pic atas sekali tu la...sebab ada yg nak naik,ada nak turun..tali tu pun jadi xtentu arah...kejap kendur kejap tegang..fuhhhh,rasa nak tergores tangan ni....memang sakit gilos tgn.....

walau ape pun,such an awesome and beautifull memories for me...
tahun ni nak panjat kinabalu plak la...muahahahahaha

Tuesday, October 25, 2016

MISHKA IS 2!

finally,terhasil jugak entry ni...walaupun lambat sebulan..hehehehe...sebelum masuk birthday mishka darius ke 3,baik settlekan..hahahaha.....sorry sayang, kurang sangat cerita awak dalam blog mama berbanding kakak dulu...tapi sayang mama xde kurang pun dari kakak ok...
darius tetap hero avengers mama ok...

#mishkaturns2


kek sponsor by pengasuh darius....

so,on 29.09 tu bawak nia and mishka to wondermama,bangsar village..saja bawak diorg makan luar walaupun kek ada kt rumah,xbawak pun kek g wondermama...sbb on 30.09 tu their father nak amik budak2,so kita kuar makan in advance la that day..just a simple dinner 3 of us and a friend of mine... budak2 ni,bukan kisah sgt pun kalau tak makan luar tp sebab dah biasa bila ada occasion kita makan luar,bday kakak hari tu pun kita g mkn luar,adil la sikit dgn adik kan...

jgn terpedaya belon pink,tu props je....hahahahaha

ok,that night i order salted egg chicken madness burger...yummeh sedap oi...actually,wondermama ni mostly dishes sesedap...my friend order  mum nyonya laksa,sedap gak..and then air sirap bandung,and my fav dessert cendol memalam..hahahaha..tp check2 pic makanan xde plak amik..ada pic mishka and his birthday burger je....oh,burger tu potong 4 u alls,share2 je sbb kat rumah ade sebijik kek sedang menanti..hahaha....


mishka and his birthday burger...dia mmg jenis pemakan punya budak....


mama and the birthday boy....


my avengers and rapunzel!

how u not fall in love with this smile?????

you will fall in love with his so handsome smile tu,tp you also can fall down running around with him la...sekarang kalau g makan luar penat ngejar dia keliling restoren bila dah settle makan...hahaha.. well, thats is the nature and experience you never get it twice..how i wish i will not missing any single proud moments for both of them..their 1st time for anything, everything...but life not always on your side right...kene la share2 sikit..huhuhu...

he grow ups tooo fast...sekejap je dah 2 tahun....

mama harap,nanti harith mishka darius dah besar,mishka tetap jadi lelaki yang terbaik untuk semua.. untuk mama,untuk kakak,untuk keluarga...mama tak dapat penuhi semua kehendak tapi mama cuba penuhi semua keperluan mishka,dari hujung rambut sampai hujung kaki...i never a good mother,but i will keep trying to be the person you can rely on,the person you can count on, the person you can share,the person you can trust,the person you always need...You are one of the greatest gift i ever had beside Nia...

definition of picture perfect....hahahahaha.....

atas tu last pic sebelum kitorg balik..that day kakak xde mood langsung nk amik pic..semua pic pun muka nak nangis...geram je mama...currently its just 3 of us...huhuhu..xde penambahan ahli keluarga lagi...doa la,moga i can bring my babies away from malaysia one day...hhuhuhu..( reason why Allah didnt hear my dua kot....)hahahahaha...

Balik rumah tu kitorg terus siap2 nak potong kek..sebenarnya kakak tunggu yang ini la..hahaha... dia ingat ayu bawak kek tu g wondermama tadi...hahaha...smpai rumah dia dah siap2 dengan lilin,dengan usung cake topper i buatkan untuk mishka....


mama nia mishka


hadiah untuk adik,kakak pun mesti la ada....

till we meet again at Nia birthdays next year...huhuhuhu.....

Wednesday, September 14, 2016

HE GONNA TURN 2

he gonna turn 2 this coming 30th....

xde pun plan bday party or whatsoever...last year we go to Lombok and having his first beach vacay...
thn ni macam xsempat nak plan pape..life mcm busy tp i think,tetibe je dah September,lg 3 bulan dah 2017...cepatnya masa berlalu....

remember this cheeky boy take lombok last year??tahun ni mishka take home je la...hahaha...
kita saving ye syg...lagi 3 thn k,kita g disneyland...(oh my,entry lombok pun tergantung day last xde entry lagi...muahahahahaha)


so far,mishka dah nak 2 tahun,he such a wonderfull boy.he never fails to take anyone heart...jgn nanti dah besar you play with women heart sudah la ye mishka...stay loyal to ur women..ehhhhh...
dah pandai bina ayat...ayat fav dia skrg,nya uat = nia buat....hahaha...dah pandai melakukan urusan jual beli=beli eskem patah kat rumah cik da...dah pandai macam2 la...u name it,he can do it...hehehe.

the day without him is like a day without sunshine..he was my daily dose,the only man i love now and forever...forever my baby boy...

siapa yg rindu mishka.........nah..............






how to not love this handsome guy????

wait for another 2 weeks..special entry especially for him..... :)

Thursday, June 2, 2016

AFTER A YEAR


its been a year....
seriously,time fly too fast....
Few people ask me,how it feel after a year of divorce...
What can i say,i feel good???i feel horrible?i feel sad?what was my feel?
Truthly,till now,i still doubt my feel...sometime i feel bad because i fail to protect our marriage...
the worsen is my babies have to experience it at young age..mishka only 8months when it happen..
But the other side me feel relieve...
i now, after a year,happily living my small slow life with my babies...ohh,i have no problem with the other side family..
afterall,they still part of my life, they still family for my babies...
i couldnt make them apart...
People who know me,know how i'm struggle to live my life after divorce.at age 29,mother of 2 and back single after 10years of relationship...
Truthly,not so much change in my life except the title..
i still mama to nia n mishka,my ultimate lover...
i have a job,i have a house,i have some saving,live a life is not a problem anymore..thank to ex for lessen my burden.i don't have to carry all the hatred and all the sin along with me..the sin bcoz of hating him...i now doesnt have to care for extra heart.reach home 5 minute after clock out,cook dinner for my baby,they have their dinner before 8pm..
What more a working mom want other then more time with their babies and i have that....thank to u,now i live my life to the fullest....
For those who asking,you live the life you are given,but you can make it worth  when you live your life the way you want it...
Ohhh,dont ask me about men,i have only one man now,Harith Mishka Darius...
who doesn't love this cheeky boy ???


and my forever princess wannabe???



its seem incomplete but we live to completed each other...they still have their father,well..we separated virtually,not their father is passing away...
its happily when you are 2,its meaningfull when you are 3,its great when you are 4 but its nothing wrong being 3 back....

and we good to be 3....



and we have a long walk to remember...i'll be okay as long my babies is great...
i'll be tough as long my baby is beside me...
i don't mind fall and fall and fall as i know i will stand up and stand up and stand up again...
and,thank you for those who lend your shoulder,give your hand and ear for me...
i'm not good at showing my gratitude,but i'm sincerely thank you for all the good words and support...
to my ultimate family who not leave me behind,
and my friend who stand by me all the time...
it just 1 person who leave me,the one who i love....
i dont loose anything as he lose me who love him...
and now i'm glad coz i'm being loved by so many people....



                                                                                                       ayu aman shah
                                                                                                       
                                                                                                       



Monday, March 14, 2016

NIA

pernah tak terlintas terdetik dalam minda
kenapa Allah jalankan hidup kita macamni
kenapa Allah jumpakan orang tu dengan kita
kenapa Allah bagi rasa yang berbagai dalam hati kita..
mestikan semua orang pernah ada rasa mcm tu,
terlintas terdetik kenapa macam ni,kenapa jadi macam tu
siapa kita nak lawan takdir Allah....
pernah tak fikir,macamana perasaan kita,macam tu jugak lah perasaan orang lain...
sebab Allah nak kau tahu,macamana hidup bila kau benci
macamana hidup bila kau memaafkan

memang aku tengah merindu,
rindukan anak puteri nan sorang tu....
tapi aku juga tahu,macamana aku rindukan dia,
macam tu jugak papa dia rindukan dia..
macam tu jugak nenek,atuk,pakngah,maklang,paksu dia rindukan dia.....
yang habis jodoh aku dengan dia,
bukan jodoh anak2 aku dengan mereka..
kalau yang menggembirakan Nia itu adalah disana,apa salahnya....
kalau yang membahagiakan semua hati2 yang aku sayang,
mana sampai hati aku nak ragut semua bahagia tu...
biarlah yang menangis aku
biarlah yang sakit aku
biarlah yang luka aku
biarlah yang mati aku
bukan anak-anak...

hidup ni untuk apa lagi
untuk anak-anak je yang tinggal
hidup ni untuk jaga hati siapa lagi
hati anak-anak...

tak de sorang pun yang aku mampu nak bercerita pasal anak...
tak de orang yang mampu aku nk luahkan...
the one who stay with me is only my pen...




how good/bad is someone to/for you,he/she is still someone you know,someone you love,someone you care,someone you miss....